...The following is a work of fiction inspired by the writings of Stephen King...
...you do not need the supernatural to experience terror; only anxiety, anger and confinement...
(Second immigrant jail förvaret experience, Flen, Sweden. Summer 2012.)
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(C) 2011, 2024. Miguel Angel Torres. Manuel Mendoza. Jaime Varela. Nicolas Ponce, Emmanuel Goldstein.
“There never was a revolution unless there were some oppressive and
intolerable conditions against which to revolute.” - Mark Twain.
"For the slave, death is his freedom.'' - Spartacus.
"Time is the fire in which we burn." - Soran, Star Trek: Generations (1994)
"... ne cumaþ þa næfre of þæra wyrma seaðe & of þæs dracan ceolan þe is Satan nemned." - "[they] never come out of the pit of snakes and of the throat of the dragon which is called Satan."[wiki]
July 1, 2012
i flipped the coin. wait till the pill supply is exhausted and then do it.
just do it. the other option is july 14th. i have not made up my mind yet.
I wonder if they placed me in room 13 on purpose (?). back in 2007 that was
the video-game room. that's where i met the guy from kurdistan.
i believe we fucked.
i keep thinking i am in the same position as that of (ironically) Marshall Goering under
allied detention at the time of the nuremberg trials. the hot war is over
and lost, but the propaganda war still continues in the court room.
the means: the place is beautifully not secured against what i must do.
they assigned me (honest to god) the same lawyer as 2007 ;)
that was cute.
p.s. just read in the Weekly Trumpet (in reference to the islamic
electoral victory in egypt), that I might not need to do what
i must do after all: ''The radicalization of Egypt is an important
step toward the now imminent return of Jesus Christ...!''
:)
July 2, 2012
"Judas [said] to him, 'I know who you are and where you have come from. You are
from the immortal realm of Barbelo. And I am not worthy to utter the name of
Judas knew HIM.
In any case. I fed the message to the actor. I also hooked with him on facebook.
Allegedly, the actor leaves the day after tomorrow. Perhaps he was not a spy
beforehand, but he is now. I've made sure of it. Now he has info on me he can
sell in exchange for advantages. They continue to see what I want them to see.
MV does not use inhouse moles, they fish them from the crowd. Basically, I have
manufactured a double agent, without the agent in question being aware of it.
The message is en route. The message for me is that everything I left behind at
the Röd Stuga is lost. My message back is that I have ''an insurance policy''.
p.s. agreed to be interviewed about my thoughts on the immigrant detention.
(1) it is cold blooded murder to send people back to countries where they might be
tortured or executed. (2) the roof fencing feels like looking at The Wall from the
perspective of East Berlin or Gaza.
D.D.R. Sverige.
July 3, 2012
Dream Transcript: "...something about ''making it up to them''. my jewish ancesters.
my mother and father and i in a police ''amphibious assult vehicle'' (?) a police
woman drove it. we got a free ride to an island. at the edge of the water a police
check point. we where stopped. at the last minute they decided not to give us a
ride to the island. they changed their minds for some ''legal reason'' ... i awoke
upset that my parents would be dissapointed with me..."
[Note: I continue to wonder why I keep dreaming about ''my jewish ancesters'' when
I was actually raised Catholic ?????]
The prison psychology is now kicking in. The Berlin Wall feeling you get at Flen.
Each one of the inmates focuses on a security blanket to keep sanity. Some use
Islam, others Sci Fi films, others ps3 games; I prefer rock music videos from
youtube...specifically Ministry and The Exploited. After Ministry, The Exploited...
Twice a day I make use of the exercise room to burn energy and keep in shape.
At kl 20 - in tandem with the evening fika- I take anti-insomniac and anti-anxiety
pills (while they last; I reckon about a week).
No ruling yet, and quite frankly I do not expect anything this week. At some point the
first 14 days will be up. So far my file has been transferred to MV. If I am re-arrested,
not only will I file a second appeal, I will also contact the European Court of Human
Rights. On Friday, I get info on the Vienna option (one way ticket to NZ).
Time is the fire in which we burn here at Swedens' immigrant hell.
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END GAME JOURNAL_The Last Sucker's Relapse
"Death sounds like rock music" said Orhan....
"Where you come from is gone.
Where you where going was never there,
Where you are is no good unless you can get away from it...''
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den 05 juli MINUS 8 / Song: Ministry, Let's Go / Tarot: 8 of Swords.
took the pills last night. ''slept'' very well. now my head is clear. i am no longer going
to fool myself with false hopes. the war of 2012 is over and i clearly lost it. the empire
FELL, Rome fell... i am in the same position as that of Marshall Goering in late '45. the
''star'' of the nuremberg trials. i politely refuse stardom. (for mithras is my true crown).
two options: either i am released by or on july 14th or i release myself radically on the
dress rehearsal. there will be no pain, because involuntary uncounciousness will simply
black it out. in order to make it easier i will take a double dose of medication. enough
to tranquilise an elephant. i have a perfect platform. all is there for me. under no
circumstance will i accept an unacceptable outcome. i must make it clear to The State i
am incontrol of where i go and where i live and where i die, not some faceless bureaucracy.
if a radical sacrifice is necessary to manifest that i am a sovereign citizen of the tax
free state, so be it. my flag is the rainbow flag and my nationality is the internet.
it will be an honorable anarcho-libertarian death. detention is a political act, my release
from it will be a political act, as well as a human sacrifice.
war is ultimately about denying the enemy what it wants. real war is total and radical.
i am a prisoner of war.
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den 06 juli MINUS 7_Song: Ministry, Relapse (Defribillator mix) / Tarot: Ace of Swords
celebrated my last communion today. a priest from svenska kyrkan came by to administer it.
the heart of a heartless world. indeed. caught up with Ministry. they've released an album
in 2007 and another now in 2012. on march 27th. i went to a disco party at Tempel that week.
i've done a survey of where and with what. found a perfect platform; this time the branch
will not break. the main problem is instinctive involuntary twitching. the body is pre-
programmed by nature to seek survival. any hung person will twitch regardless of un-
counciousness. i made the mistake of using a tree branch before, wood is weak. it will not
be a problem to procure the ligature. to make it humane i will take double doses of anti-
insomiacs and sedatives...also 500mm of paracetamol to cherry it up. this time i will not
fail. Now i understand what Minister Goebbels meant by ''propaganda does not capitulate.''
so i am the anti-nazi who ended up living in the nazi hell. the neo-jew...
the asylum hearing took place today. asylum indeed. insane as insane can be. it is an insane
system. they said that the seven years i lived in sweden illegal do not count for nothing.
seven years of work, of sacrifice count for nothing. they want to do a skull measurement; they
call it ''linguistic analysis'' to determine my ''nationality''. that is how racist they are.
my reply is that i do not regret doing what i had to do because it is what i had to do to
survive. i will be very happy to radically liberate myself from the asylum. the system process
is the post-modern version of the rack, with time as the hellfire. it is up to me to decide
when and where i end the narrative.
that is what God grants to me.
they hate me because i beat their system for seven years. i spit on their border. so now they
want revenge... it is up to me to deny the enemy what it wants. that is the ultimate why.
fighting spite with spite.
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"[Jesus said], “What are [the priests] like?” They [said, “Some …] two weeks; [some]
sacrifice their own children, others their wives, in praise [and] humility with each
other; some sleep with men; some are involved in [slaughter]; some commit a multitude
of sins and deeds of lawlessness. And the men who stand [before] the altar invoke your
[name], [39] and in all the deeds of their deficiency, the sacrifices are brought to
completion […]." - The Gospel of Judas
...this one is called filth pig...
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den 08 juli MINUS 5_Song: The Exploited, Beat the Bastards / Tarot: 6 of Swords (Lilithu)
the mother is in on it. she is impressed that i have chosen 03:00 hrs. very few know that this
is in fact the true midnight. not 12:00 but 03:00. the hour of shadows, the hour when Judas
delivered Jesus. the hour of the shappatu. sabbath. the hour when the consecrated knife cuts
the throat of the pennant before he is fed to the Towen bog pit.
very few KNOW about 03:00 hours.
it's the holocaust; far worst...
hijo de la luna !
if seven years of sacrifice count for nothing to them, then their border counts for nothing to
me. i was perfectly justified in the utilisation of false documents to facilitate effective
survival and ensure freedom of movement.
the question is not ''when''; the question is WHY. the means exist. I am not entirely sure I can live with ''plan B'' and I am ''certain'' that ''plan A'' is a lost cause. Not ''certain''. Hope still exists, but it is remote. I am undecided, yet freedom states at me. Only a few days until the pills run out. just in time for corn flakes. There is a strange ''happiness'' whose source I can not quite identify in context of the circumstances. THE NINE OF SWORDS REVERSED. I am missing the last name. The MV hates me because I represent THE NEGATION (the living negation), of the propaganda premise that ''Sweden is generous''. We pay for the so-called ''generosity'' by staying in detention. Sweden is NOT generous. In exchange for the so-called ''generosity'' MV makes us PAY by forcing us into detention. And NO; MV is not ''the only way'' to get into Sweden, because there exists a black market where people can buy papers to get in regardless of MV and in spite of it. The truth hurts. Irrational ''plan C'' requires a rational ''why''; and THAT is the problem.
den 09 juli MINUS 4_Song: Ministry, Just one Fix (12inch) / Tarot: 9 of Swords
no. i am still not going to hell if i decide to jump the rope. insofar as the act constitutes
a radical denial of the asylum process; it is an act of justice against systemic injustice.
to not do anything would legitimate the process by granting MV total control over the situation.
they want to lynch me. they want to make ''an example'' of me BECAUSE I SUCCESSFULLY BEAT THEIR SYSTEM FOR SEVEN YEARS. I lived, went to church and worked without MV and despite MV. i took a big smelly SHIT on their aliens act and wiped my arse with the pages of the USA passport I stole. their
sovereign feelings are hurt...boooofuckinghoooo.... their main complaint is that ''i lived
illegal for seven years''... so they put me in a cage as if i was a zoo animal...
if they think that i am going to beg the Swedish State for ''mercy'', they are wasting their
time. i only bow to the God of Abraham. They can shove the aliens act up the kings' arse.
propaganda DOES NOT capitulate.
den 10 juli MINUS 3_Song: Ministry, The Last Sucker / Tarot: 5 of Swords
greetings from up against the wall ! living ''illegal'' is migration crime. migration crime is
the crime that encompassses all others in itself. migration crime is death. increasingly so,
death is liberation. death is freedom. now i understand what spartacus meant. the gnostic
heretics are right after all ! no. i am not going to hell. i am going to be free of the biological
cage inside a cage that i find myself in. i am already in hell. DEATH IS FREEDOM FROM THE HELL OF IMMIGRANT DETENTION. DEATH IS FREEDOM FROM THE POSSIBILITY OF DEPORTATION TO SOME HELLHOLE WHERE YOUR HUMAN RIGHTS ARE VIOLATED AND YOU FACE TORTURE. Immigrant detention is only but the open
mouth of hell. Let them deport a rotting corpse.
den 11 juli MINUS 2_Song: Ministry, Stigmata (In Case you...)/ Tarot: 10 of Swords
"31:...When you should
32:...know-yourselves, then they-will-know
33:...you, and you will realize that you are
34:...the sons of the father who lives."
11/22_ Existent/Bread/Body
I AM AN EDITABLE THOUGHT OF GOD EXISTING IN CONTEXT OF A TEXT WRITTEN BY HIM.
(the ontological conclusion of theological hermeneutics, pre-chaos)
I AM A BRANDED, POLYMORPHIC, MULTILINEAR, DYNAMIC NARRATIVE WHO IS POWERED BY
THE FAITH FACTOR. A DYNAMIC NEO-STRUCTURE THAT EXISTS IN CONTEXT OF GAME: I AM
CHAOS. ERGO: I AM NOT.
(...the appearance of chaos is premised upon an underlying order that can be
mathematically explained...)
33/66_ Synthesis/Praxis/THE NAME
MNI MbTbR SI AaM S_s
[tsa] enosh
DTth VEH FSJTd CTT_El BTTwP
SOTTrO_Gd
IATScWTHOARm IAMCAJI
IABTTChrABTTCrl
IABIHANaAAShw MNI_4
IAMTHer IATDis IAMTMVir
IATTrdA
Behold TMILTLyrAIDLTPlec
TMSLAIAAwk
MNIF IATH IATD IATMV IATTA
BTMILTLAIDLTP TMSAIAA
[f I AM tsotm]
AMEN.
den 12 juli MINUS 1_Song: Ministry, Jesus built my Hotrod (RWL mix) /
[Dream Transcript October 2007, while at Flen: “A pool of blood spilling from
underneath the door into the hallway outside the smoking room…” I realised that
that smoking room is the antechamber of death and torture for many who sat and
sit in it. waiting for deportation at Flen is like waiting in line at
THE OPEN
MOUTH OF HELL.]
they hate me because i successfully colonised the land in spite of them. i gave the europeans a dose of their own colonialist medicine. i have a natural right to survive. no human is illegal, because people are natural and they have a natural right to exist, live and die. borders are not natural. they are man made. the scandivanian landmass was here before the swedish state, it will be here long after the swedish state is dismantled. sweden is a nationalist illusion (as is every nation-state in the planet). nationalism is the biggest lie of all.
this is why patriotism is the last refuge of scoundrels...
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den 13 juli_Ground Zero
"A basement.brickwork. dusty and dark. The Röd Stuga (?). Spiders (big and poisonous). I was much older, I was wearing a hooded pullover. I was hungry and ate old candy (?). I looked atmyself in the mirrior and said 'It is 2020 and I survived'. Rats and spiders in the basement. There was a cadaver lying on a table, a pool of blood, a rat chewing on the cadavers ear; the rat chewed and knawed at the ear and pulled out soft membrane tissue to chew on it. A large spider came towards the rat; but the rat reacted swiftly and ran away carrying between its teeth a scrap of meat from the cadavers ear." I Awoke.
I sent myself a massage from the year 2020. From a future that will not be. A mirror reflection of myself eight years from now said: ''We Survived''. A possible future self, from the perspective of this 2012, of course...I was hooded, piercing eyes, I sensed greater experience and depth of perception.
Military type discipline.
02:00 HRS. Final thought: They will wish hell was only fire.
FINIS.
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(C) Emmanuel Goldstein.
.JPG "Child of Bastet")
